I had a recording session in Yorkshire in January which went alright, but wasn't perfect. My vocals were ok but ropey, and interesting when we looked at the sound wave of the vocals, there were upper and lower spikes in the sound wave, which is really weird. We just put it down to being 'my sound' like on the edge.
So that was that and I also had tuning issues on the guitar. We finished the week with an incomplete recording which was not the intended result.
On our (wifey got a holiday) way back to London, I was listening to music whilst driving and as I often do, I equalized my ears by holding my nose and blowing. As I did so, I suddenly heard all of these upper harmonics and frequencies in the music; it was magical. I really thought it was some witchcraft or something. We pulled over at the next services and I did a bit of googling and found that ear problems can cause singers to sing not on the money.
I called the Dr, and he (over the phone) diagnosed a Eustachian Tube Dysfunction ,so I used my nose to blow up a balloon for a week with this thing. I also went to a Chinese Dr and she got a massive chunk of wax out using the candle method. Actually, the candle method dislodged a load of wax and I lost hearing in my right ear.
So, I freaked out and managed to get an emergency appointment with the Dr and she took a look and said there was a load of wax in both ears; she couldn't see through my right ear. We subsequently made an appointment with the nurse, which would have been in two weeks' time.
One of my good friends recommended a place in Soho where they use suction technology to pull wax and debris out and I managed to get an appointment for that same day. 5 minutes with the surgeon and she had pulled out massive black globules of wax (size of rabbit poo), compacted down with dead skin from each ear. She said that it's possibly been there for many, many years. As soon as she worked her magic I could hear properly, and I mean hear in crystal clear detail.
It has been so amazing, hearing the world as it is rather than a dulled version of it. There is so much vibrancy in everything and I am really happy. My voice sounds very different to me now and I'm working on certain things; mainly trusting my voice and building agility, as it's much easier to be agile when you can hear what you are doing. I am really optimistic about the future and I'll be recording some demos and YouTube vids soon. I've started using baritone strings on my guitar and I'll see how it goes.
At the beginning of the post I mentioned that I was extremely upset by it also. The whole big WHAT IF I HAD KNOWN EARLIER? Well, I am lucky to work with some amazing people and a trusted friend recommended I read the following poem, which I'm trying to fully assimilate. Jagtar x
I AM Poem by Helen Mallicoat
I was regretting the past
And fearing the future.
Suddenly my Lord was speaking:
“My name is I Am.” He paused.
I waited. He continued,
When you live in the past
With its mistakes and regrets,
It is hard. I am not there,
My name is not I WAS”.
When you live in the future
With its problems and fears,
It is hard. I am not there.
My name is not I WILL BE.
When you live in this moment,
It is not hard. I am here.
My name is I AM.
And fearing the future.
Suddenly my Lord was speaking:
“My name is I Am.” He paused.
I waited. He continued,
When you live in the past
With its mistakes and regrets,
It is hard. I am not there,
My name is not I WAS”.
When you live in the future
With its problems and fears,
It is hard. I am not there.
My name is not I WILL BE.
When you live in this moment,
It is not hard. I am here.
My name is I AM.
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